I had cancer in this photo, but didn’t know it yet. And MAN, things were finally happening for me. Such bad timing, thanks cancer. After living in Nashville for a little while, I was finally sharing and recording the new album and then BOOM, we were hit with this incredibly life rocking news. In the years following I have come to realize how precious and important that chapter was. It was a time to turn inward and really reflect on what was most important.

2020 has many of the same qualities. 

There’s a lot of loss, heartache, and confusion, and it has definitely forced us to look at the uncomfortable/painful things in an honest open light. There are things about the world, my country, and myself that I am really broken up about. No more glossing over the crud. We need to flush out what’s suffocating us, so we have the room to firmly plant some good hardy worthwhile roots. 

So yeah, I’m super done with this year, just like you. But to share a perspective, being on the other side of all those blasted surgeries, chemo, radiation, and about a billion scans, and radioactive drinks, I’m grateful I had the opportunity to live through that because now every drop of love, health, and life I have today feels like a big juicy miracle. 

I think we should all write down the things we’ve felt and learned during this experience. This way we won’t forget what it felt like to not be able to hug someone, or go see someone, or go to a family member’s wedding, or be able to see the world smile at each other. That way, when we have it all back, we’ll be able to cherish those things forever and ever.

All my love,

Rachel Adell