Album Diaries | Who Loves You
Rachel Adell, an American mother of three, living in London is releasing an album after enduring cancer and other challenges. Rachel's hope is that Saturday Sunrise will wrap its arms around you, and help you get through that next dark night, as it has for her.
Song: “Who Loves You”
Album: Saturday Sunrise 2023
Written: Los Angeles 2019
Topic: Reminding a childhood friend you will always love them
When we were young and chewing gum
Try to blow bubbles with bubble yum
Didn’t know we’d grow up and be terrified
Of all the ways we failed and tried
As we get older, the weight we carry gets real. Less able to hold as much as we thought we once could. Every day, seems like one traumatic even after another. Our poor hearts. Those heavy, excruciating and isolating things come for us all.
How do you manage the pain, keep doing life, find the words and make time for them, AND find the right person to talk to? Who has the mental capacity to handle their own drama, let alone mine. Sound familiar? Most of us default to recluse mode, rather than create burden for others. But we are not burdens, we give a gift when we offer our trust and vulnerability. We create connection that cannot be created in any other way.
There is a loneliness pandemic. It’s easy to forget how to connect in an authentic way. An entire generation being raised without the freedom and normalcy of eye contact. Casual hang outs can feel arduous, and at times frivolous. Sometimes it’s hard to calculate the benefit of in person activities. That is, until you bite the bullet and just give it a fighting chance. It’s usually always, always, always worth it.
Life can be a dull knife in the heart
A stab right into the ground
It’ll crush and shake you silently
Screaming inside without a sound
Whenever an old friend is on my mind, I try to reach out to them at that moment. Every single time I do, they have been going through something real, and needed an ear or a lift. So, this song is on the album and was written to remind us all to call our friends. Remind that we are theirs forever. No matter what happens in their life, there is no judgement, no competition, no need for lonliness. This life is tough, and letting your friends know that you are still there and you still care is everything.
If nobody loves you
You know that’s not true
In the cold heart of winter
It’s me, who loves you
Written and Performed by Rachel Adell
Produced by Craig Sayer
Album Diaries | Everything
Rachel Adell, an American mother of three, living in London is releasing an album after enduring cancer and other challenges. Rachel's hope is that Saturday Sunrise will wrap its arms around you, and help you get through that next dark night, as it has for her.
Song: “Everything”
Album: Saturday Sunrise 2023
Written: Los Angeles 2011 , orginal title “You Had to Go”
Topic: Grieving a loved one, namely a parent
This song was inspired by the death of mother in law’s mother. Their relationship was so tender and sweet, and touched me deeply. It was originally titled “You Had to Go” but I wanted to focus more on the love and admiration, not only the loss. The loss is the inspiration for the song, and hopefully creates a space to do some of your own grieiving if you have also lost someone close to you. There is a sweetness is allowing ourselves to truly feel the pain, so we can find some reverance and quiet on the other side.
Only a couple years before Ruthie passed away she told me that she held her daughter and hugged her the whole night during a particularly rough chapter. That image holds space in my heart every time I play or sing this song. Thank goodness for the people who are willing to sit with us and rock us when we need it most.
Always had you before
I don’t have you anymore
All my memories are perfect and right
You held me and rocked me throughout the night
I still remember
Your smile and frown
I’m sorry for the times I let you down
I’ll always love you
You’ll always love me
But I’ll be good for you, wait and see
Recently my mother went through cancer, and then was given the news that the chemo and radiation would not be able to get rid of it all, and she would need to get transfusions for the rest of her life. The other part is that we don’t know how long she has to live as it is such a rare cancer. Losing my mom seems unfathomable, I hope we have lots more time with her. Our mothers become this symbol and figure that is impossible to replace. For those of you who have already lost your mothers, my heart goes out to you. It has got to be the most challenging loss, most especially if you were young, oh my gosh. All the blessings to your wonderful heart, I hope this song finds a safe home with you.
You had to go
Yes I know
You were everything, everything, everything
You were everything, everything, everything
You were everything
Gotta be strong
Time to move on
Don’t want to go home
Without you there
I know you’re not gone
That feeling is wrong
I’m gonna hang on
Till I see you again
You were everything to me
Written and performed by Rachel Adell
Produced by Craig Sayer